wishing on this blog

i have many blogs.

i'm very good at starting blogs, but still better at losing interest later. it must be because i haven't written what i really want to say. i haven't written what i really feel. the posts are empty, just random words stringed together thoughlessly just to fill up the free space.

you see, i have this sense of entitlement, that if it's free, i better grab my share.
but after the excitement of setting up a blog fizzles, i find myself at a loss what to write.

or perhaps because i am not confident enough to be able to write and be understood. and in my heart of hearts, i have to admit that i fear disclosing my inner thoughts and feelings. disclosure to people i am not close to or even not acquainted to lends me feeling vulnerable. of course, i am assuming that people might stumble on this blog.

so i wish on this blog. may the universe open up and clear a space for me, just a tiny speck is all i ask. for now.